Sticks and Stones

06 Sep

Hey everyone! I’m at my sister’s house again, using her internet. I wrote a short story yesterday, that I am posting to my Tumblr. If you would like to read it, you can do so by clicking the picture. If you would like to comment, come back to this post because it’s easier for me to reply here than on Tumblr.

Sticks and stones


Posted by on September 6, 2015 in Tumblr


26 responses to “Sticks and Stones

  1. littlesims2chick

    September 7, 2015 at 8:21 pm

    Ummm okay, wow. Totally tragic but I loved it ❤ I can relate so badly right now… Thanks for writing this 🙂 This just made me feel… Different? Idk lol. I have a lot going on right now in my life and I beat myself up A LOT on top of the people in my life that beat me up with their words too. They don't realize it, but they do… I try not to "over-react" but it just irritates me. Sorry, I'm having a moment but this short story was like my life in a few paragraphs… Girl, you have no idea. That saying "Sticks and stones…Etc." Really is bullshit. I think people should think twice before they say shit.

    Now that I'm thinking about college all my family members are like "Why are you pursuing music, you can do so much better blah blah blah…" It's crazy, and it hurts. I never feel like I'm good enough to be completely honest but I try…. That's all you can do. But I work my ass off for everything in my life, so I know that's not true. I'm not a slacker…

    All my friends said I changed and I'm growing apart from them. But when I'm around them they make silly jokes that piss me off and then when I get bitchy they act surprised… Jokes are cool but if it's rude I don't want to hear it every day… Then it's like it's not a joke. Hopefully things will get better. I never imagined feeling this way in all my life… I was always such a happy girl but ever since junior year I've been depressed and stressed :/. And I pretend to be happy so people will leave me alone but most of these days I'm just miserable. My Spanish teacher actually called me out in class a few days ago and said I looked down IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE CLASS… Ugh, I really don't like her and the year just started -_-. But either way I'm thinking about moving to Cali when I turn 18 next year… I just want to follow my heart, and that's where it's leading me. I love my family but… If I get a scholarship I'm gone lol. My family is all upset I told them I wanted to go to Cali so now they just assume I'm ungrateful or want to get "Buck wild" and don't have a heart… I know they talk about me when I'm gone but it is what it is. The words hurt but I try not to let it show… I know I probably will explode eventually. But I wouldn't go to the extremes of suicide… Although I know it is a lot for some people though… So sad. BUT THANKS FOR THIS!!!! ❤

    • Late Knight Simmer

      September 10, 2015 at 1:33 pm

      Haha… you’re welcome. I am glad that you felt something when reading this, even if you weren’t sure what it was, LOL. I have had to learn to not beat myself up, I used to do it a lot, but I don’t do it as much now. What helped me was to tell myself good things, even, and especially, when others are not. Believe me, I know firsthand how hard that is, to change thoughts about yourself to positive ones, but I really believe that’s the only way to pull out of a situation like the one in the story. Eventually, I thought enough good thoughts about myself, that it became less of a habit for me to beat myself up. I think a lot of people have this problem nowadays, just because of how others are treating each other. The whole sarcasm to be mean to be funny attitude, is rampant these days, and I don’t understand it. I don’t mind sarcasm, but not when it’s putting someone down, I think putting anyone down is uncalled for and just downright rude.

      I’m sincerely sorry your family members and people you thought were your friends are not supporting you. I think that’s the number one reason people give up on themselves and settle for less than what they’re capable of. Hang in there, you know you work your ass off, as you so clearly stated in your comment, so hang on to that, and you’ll go far. I don’t get why people think music is not a ‘good’ job or whatever, or why they think music is less than any other job. It’s the same for acting, which is what I am doing. I got a lot of people who told me to stop living some fantasy I’d never achieve, and get a real job, or they’d tell me it’s impossible. Just because they don’t want to do it, or think it’s too hard, then they tell us, who want to do acting or music, that it’s not feasible or that it’s not good. I think they’re just jealous and don’t want to admit it. LOL. They’re jealous that people who want to do music or acting have the courage to pursue something so difficult.

      Wow… your Spanish teacher sounds like a tool LOL. She had no idea what she was saying when she called you out in class. Ugh, she reminds me of those people who used to tell me to “Smile more,” or “You look so angry all the time, lighten up.” And all I wanted to do was punch them. LOL. It’s like, shut up dude, you don’t know what I’m going through, so lay off. Fucking. A.

      This story was influenced actually by an experience I had last week where a classmate called me a slacker and it fucked up my head for four days. The beating myself up started again and I wanted to punch him. LOL. Back in the day, before I found what I really wanted to do, I had contemplated suicide, many times. I never attempted however, but I was always right up on the edge, and I would definitely think about it at least once a day. I think it was my heart’s desire to do acting that was what kept me from attempting anything, even if my head didn’t know it yet. So definitely follow your heart, I think that is what takes people places. You’ll always run into crazy people who tell you that you can’t, but if you let your heart guide you, then someday, none of those people will matter.

      • littlesims2chick

        September 21, 2015 at 12:42 pm

        Sorry it took me like two weeks to respond >_< lol but here I am. I will try and think positive things about myself and see how that works out… It's worth a try. SEE! I agree with you on that whole sarcasm to be funny thing but my friends think it's normal. Not just them but like everyone in my school so it makes me feel like I'm blowing it out of proportion when I snap back at them or get upset but I can't help it. There's insecurities I have about myself that I don't even tell anyone else and when my friends make a joke about it unknowingly it just enrages me so bad or sometimes I want to cry but then I remember they don't know about all my demons… It sucks because then I'm like "Damn, if they said it and I think that that way about myself, it must be true…" I haven't talked to any of my friends since school started actually, I've kind of been making new friends that I have a lot more stuff in common with. Which happens like every single year lol *Shrug* One of the girls I talk to is just straight up fake like OMG I can't even… It's like Mean Girls 2.0 I'm not even exaggerating (She told her other "friend" that their parents were disgusting for conceiving her so late in their lives and one of them would probably die before she had grandchildren *not joking*) but I can't necessairly break away from her…. It's complicated. O.o

        Aww you're such a sweet heart! 🙂 I befriended this one musician I surprisingly have 3 classes with and she's sooooo positive and relaxed, which is good for me. She always encourages me to not give up and she's like an angel from above. It's nice to have at least one person who understands me and my future. Music is a job! It requires so much effort and time. I can't just get up and play a freaking Sonata over night… People take that for granted. They associate art with talent so they think it's "easy" to be good at something that's artistic when in actuality we practice our little asses off until we cry and wonder why we're doing it in the first place 😛 . And GIRL PLEASE! You're not living a fantasy!!!! Never believe that crap. Nothing is impossible, that's just a stupid cop out.Acting isn't something everyone can do. I hate to say it but some big movie stars make me cringe with their performances in movies, not all but some. You're probably right though, they just might be jealous… Acting seems fun.

        OMG she's driving me fucking insane. Even my friend in that class agrees. She's like "Talk so you can get tickets and earn prizes guys!" or "John, why is your head down? You look upset. Do you need to go to counseling? What's wrong?" *Rolls eyes* All she wants us to do is talk talk talk talk talk talk but I'm SHY AS FUCK!!! I hate putting myself out there to people I don't know or give a shit about. It's a shame because I'm good at Spanish, I can pass with flying colors on any exam yet our participation affects out grade. -_- I even confronted her about that and she like shrugged it off and said "You're very eloquent." And all this other crap. :S But yasss omg I hate when people tell me to smile, especially in the morning… That's just not me. And someone can be happy without having a cheesy grin on their face. :/

        I figured something influenced you to write it but I didn't want to ask. Girl, you should've punched him lol. Who the hell does he think he is? Fuck him. He's irrelevant, don't pay his silly comment any attention. We all find that one thing worth living for… And for others it's too late. Thank god that wasn't you 🙂 The heart definitely wants what it wants, and for you that was acting. It's funny how as kids we're told "You can be whatever you want" and then when you reach high school they have you take ACT's and they're like "Oh, you scored higher in this so you should do this."

        It's funny because when I was like 7 I was sitting in my room singing and out of nowhere I was like 'I really want to play the piano.' Told my dad, and he patronized me and thought I was like joking, he went as far as going to look at a piano to buy for me and then he came home and said we didn't have space which was a BS excuse. I settled for the guitar and that didn't work. I kind of went on and forgot about it but then When I got in middle school this guy gave me piano lessons for cheap and then after a while he stopped charging me because he liked me so much. LITERALLY I don't know how but all the right people got placed in my path UNEXPECTEDLY!!! I got my piano for free and when it was time for me to move on to a different instructor I met her at my doctor's office, it's crazy. I still talk to my old instructor and he always tells me that I'll never be happy until I do what I truly want to do…
        He has a point. I think this whole "Following your heart" thing is working for me so far. It's like my destiny to be a musician…. I believe in destinies… We all have something we were just MADE to do… It's so weird, yet cool. My silly childhood dream actually followed me until I actively pursued it… Crazy. :S

    • Late Knight Simmer

      September 21, 2015 at 8:16 pm

      Haha, it’s really okay, I wasn’t expecting a response. It’s cool that you took the time to give one, though. Thinking positively is definitely worth a try, it got me out of my dark places. I’m not saying be cheesy and fake to yourself, LOL, obviously, like if you’re in a bad mood, then that just happens, but it’s just like, those crazy vicious cycle thoughts that can be replaced with positive thoughts. Cause as we both know… other people can’t seem to be trusted to say positive things to us, so we got to do it for ourselves. It’s probably better you make new friends every year, LOL, unless you find someone that is a good influence for you and can be a real friend through your life. Pahaha, that mean girls 2.0 chick sounds… so nuts. Haha, it’s ironic cause if her parents never had her, she wouldn’t be here to complain about how late they had her in their life. She should be grateful they even had her. ROFL.

      People don’t understand talent, like, even some people who don’t have like natural talent, like, they have to work at it to be really good. Yes, I agree, some actors are not the best, they don’t try very hard, in my opinion, they might be the ones who think it’s ‘easy,’ so they just half ass it or something. LOL. Or they try too hard and they come off fake and wierd. LOL. There is work to be done to be one of those great, phenomenal actors, just like it takes a lot of work to be a musician who can touch people with their songs, music, lyrics, whatever part of the music you’re doing. There is also natural talent, which this is going to sound like bragging, LOL, but I know I’m good at acting because it comes fairly easily to me, but that also doesn’t mean that I don’t try to be better, and improve. I’ll never settle and be like “Oh I’m good, so I’ll just stay on this level,” you know? LOL. I’m always like “I’m good, so I’m going to try and be even better.” 😀 Acting isn’t for everyone, and some people don’t think it’s that fun, but for me, it’s like, I feel this natural high and happiness when I am doing it, it just feels right. Haha, now I don’t really care what people say about my choice of career, they can go fuck themselves, honestly LOL. It used to discourage me before, but now it just like mildly annoys me. Nothing I can’t handle.

      Fucking teacher… okay, so I understand talking out your feelings, but like.. NOT to someone who is not close to you, NOT to someone who is pushing you to do it, and definitely NOT in front of a bunch of other people who aren’t close to you. Does she not have any sense of like personal boundaries? What a bitch. LOL. Ugh, I hate when participation affects grade. It’s just stupid. LOL. Definitely understand the being forced to smile thing. It’s ok to just be somewhere and not smile. It doesn’t mean you’re like messed up it just means you don’t happen to be smiling at the moment, LOL. Like I’m happy for the most part these days, but I don’t go around smiling constantly like a retard or whatever, LOL. It will be certain things that make me smile, or certain people who I see. I feel like people who are like “SMILE” are people who are really smiling to hide their pain. LOL.

      Yeah, he’s a turd, LOL, I’m better now, Sims, alcohol, and writing helped a lot. IKR? It’s such an irritating thing when people start getting told in high school that they ‘have’ to do a certain thing… it’s just like… let me figure it out myself?! Haha. Test scores don’t mean shit in real life, but sadly, you have to get past test scores in order to get to your real life… like you gotta finish school before you can just live. LOL.

      You know what? That’s how life works, honestly. People get put in your path, and they were meant to be there. I live in a state where acting isn’t the dominant industry, yet I’ve been able to find some jobs to do regarding acting, something I never would have thought possible, but it was all because there were people I knew who knew about things that were happening. People think success is all about test scores, GPA, and degrees, but it’s really all about who you know, and how you use those opportunities that come your way. Acting was my childhood dream, but I always say now it’s just my dream, because it didn’t just stay in childhood, I remembered that I wanted to do it, even now as an adult. If you’re meant to do something, it will keep coming back and trying to remind you that it exists. LOL. It’s good that way. XD

      • littlesims2chick

        September 24, 2015 at 5:12 pm

        I try… 🙂 It’s really so hard to remind yourself to think positively. I just started thinking about it now actually haha. Networking never hurt anybody but damnnnn that chick is nuts! Some of the stuff she tells me just makes me want to cringe. She thinks she’s entitled to everything!!!! Her parents were having financial issues and can’t really afford to pay for her second SAT because she didn’t do so hot on the first one. She told her dad “It’s his fault he can’t pay his bills on time.” She said she cried until her gave her what he wanted, she tells me her younger sister makes fun of her for it and I can see why! She’s almost 18… Come the fuck on!!! -_- I didn’t know what to say to her…. She says she won’t get a job because that’s what parents are for and I get that to an extent but she’s really…. Snotty. I work.. Do I like it? Hell no. But the money is nice and I can’t bother my parents 24/7 for shit… Like idk, we all have to grow up sometimes… She’s very odd and talks about mental disorders a lot and other people she thinks has them and to be honest I think she has one herself since she knows about them so much. *Shrug*

        Lol I could never half-ass something… That’s just not me lol. Personally, when I watch movies I feel like the actors try to hard rather than not trying at all. (I barely watch movies so don’t take my word) But yeah that’s my biggest gripe. I totally understand you 🙂 All the greats try and perfect their craft or re-invent it someway. There’s always something next, even if you’re at the top… That’s the way I see it. Lol yes a “natural high!” I know what you mean… I hate saying that sometimes because people take it out of context but the feeling is overwhelming. I get the chills or sometimes I’ll shudder. It fascinates me how people can be so wrapped up on someone else’s life… It’s kind of creepy if you think about it… lol.

        Gurrrrrl. Lord have mercy on that woman… I can’t. Her way of doing stuff is just weird.A guy from another class walked in a few days ago and as soon as he left she asked the class “How come he wasn’t smiling? That makes me uneasy.” A few minutes later he came back in to get some more stuff… She asked for his name, his teacher’s name and a bunch of other weird shit, and when he left she was asking the class what was wrong with him and I was just sitting there like —-> -_- Really bitch? Really…. Omg she drags the participation thing, she won’t move on to anything productive until at least everyone speaks at the beginning of class so we never learn anything. Honestly, I haven’t learned anything new yet. Yesterday she asked us what gracias and porfavor mean and the kids asked her if it was a joke… She had us write it down and everything, along with a bunch of other words we already knew. The class I’m in is the last Spanish class for high school so all the damn class knows what gracias mean… HELL!!! Even a person on the street knows what gracias means O.o I have a “partner project” due tomorrow and the girl didn’t even show up to class today which means I’m doing it on my own tonight. She told me when we first sat down that she was lazy. So I was like “GREAT!!!!” *sarcasm* She watched me write the whole thing while she just talked about Teen Wolf, her job, weird guys, her boat shoes, her mom, her hair… Idk I lost track. But it was everything BUT THE DAMN PROJECT!!! *rolls eyes* :/ Ughh but I only smile around people I know, it’s just natural like “Oh hey Jenny, what’s up?” You know? She might be a sad woman like you said… I can see her being like that.

        Lolz you’re the better person… He could never be that. It bugs me when people talkg negatively about others… Like why? You can think something but you don’t have to say it… And I’m sure you thought a bunch of shit about him lol… I KNOOOOW. I realized that this year… Like, half the grades don’t matter. Once this year is over, that’s it… THANK GOD! I want my diploma now. Some of my friends don’t know what they want to do and I never understood being in that situation until now. Sometimes I wonder if college is even it for me.It looks good though and I want the “experience” of dorm life.

        You know I used to wonder why some people didn’t stay in my life and now I just don’t care. If a person cares, they’ll reach out… I learned that the hard way. There’s alwys those hidden gems everywhere, but I’m grateful for where I live… There’s tons of opportunities but it’s also a bad thing too because there’s a shit load of people “chasing dreams” here :/ YEAHHHH!!! LOL It really isn’t what you know… It’s about who you know 😉 Awww lol you ever done a musical before, like at school or something? Lol … I did one and never did another again… It was wild. (Clown musical in like 6th or 5th grade)

  2. littlesims2chick

    September 7, 2015 at 8:24 pm

    Oh shit, yeah… I can’t heart it on Tumblr until a few days… Sorry I’m super busy with school work right now. I should be typing up a letter for class but I saw this and had to comment. Hope you’re doing well hun. ^_^

    • Late Knight Simmer

      September 10, 2015 at 1:35 pm

      LOL, it’s totally fine about giving it a heart on Tumblr. Get to it whenever you can, it’s not a big deal. Haha. Put your school work first, you can always put off reading my stories, they’ll still be here, and you’re not getting graded on my stories, so LOL, it’s not that urgent. Thanks so much for always taking time out of your day for reading and commenting. I appreciate you! I hope you’re doing well too. ❤

  3. LilyShadowWriter

    September 8, 2015 at 11:43 am

    This story reminded me of an experience that a guest speaker shared with us one day in my Psychology of Suicide class. It was some time ago, so I can’t remember the precise details perfectly, but essentially the man had a client who one day left a note on his answering machine that said, “I’m going to take a walk on the [Golden Gate] Bridge, if someone smiles at me, I won’t jump.”

    As you might imagine, the man did jump, because of all the people that he passed on his walk that night, not a single person looked his way.

    It speaks to the power that kind words can have or even just a quick smile, however meaningless or awkward it may feel in the moment. As stated in your story, “No one told the girl she was beautiful. No one could ever spare a kind word.” Now, if someone had, would the story have been different? It’s difficult to say, but it sure speaks to the importance of taking even a split second to say or do something nice for another, whether it is a kind word, a simple smile, or whatever have you.

    Words can, and do, have a profound impact….That sticks and stones message really is a load of bullshit.

    Of course, this story also resonates deeply with my past, as we discussed a bit while you were reading James’ generation so, as littlesims2chick expressed: Thank you for sharing this ❤

    • Late Knight Simmer

      September 10, 2015 at 1:48 pm

      Wow, that story you shared about the man on the bridge is definitely a powerful one… it’s crazy how much people don’t look at each other when they pass on the street. I admit I am guilty of that, mainly because the opposite can happen, you look someone in the eye, and they get offended, and start a fight with you or something. I have learned that keeping my gaze not fixated on any one person when walking down the street is survival. I think in some ways, it’s necessary, to sort of be on guard like that because the people walking down the street are strangers, but at the same time it’s essential to mind your surroundings too. Like I’m sure that guy who wanted to jump unless someone smiled would have looked completely different in his demeanor than just a regular person who was walking home from work. Your story speaks to how crucial it is to be able to sense people, you know how sometimes you get a creepy feeling from a stranger, but there are other strangers that make you feel all right, or even welcomed. No one sensed that guy had a problem, and that is what was truly sad about that story, I think. No one paid attention to even see that maybe he was walking a little too close to the edge, or maybe that he looked a little sad.

      I wrote this story after someone in class last week did that very thing to me, and I was fucked up in the head for four days. The last half of the story was what I had thought about in the past, many times, although never attempted. I know that kind words from anyone, even people on tv showing kindness to each other in a drama show, can be just as powerful. I remember going to a science center exhibit and they were having a thing where tv characters were talking to the people at the exhibit as if they were right there in the room with them. The tv character at the end of the exhibit said some really nice words to me and even though it was a pre-recorded segment designed for the exhibit, I felt like he was talking directly to me, and it helped a lot in how I thought. It gave me hope again. So yes, the story is different with a kind word because the story is my story, truncated, of course, by a lot, LOL, and this short story is sort of an alternate ending of how my story might have gone had I never found that hope.

      Haha, yes, James. I still love him the most out of all your characters. LOL. You’re very welcome. Thank YOU for always reading and commenting.

      • LilyShadowWriter

        September 11, 2015 at 12:15 am

        I admit that I’m guilty of the same sometimes for the same reasons: It’s not always safe…especially in a big city.

        As you pointed out though, the saddest thing about the story is that no one noticed that he looked in a bad way; no one noticed him veering toward the railing; and hell, no one may have even noticed when he climbed over the damn thing and if anyone did, it was clearly at a point where it was too late. That being said, the same guest speaker also told us stories where someone DID notice and intervene, so luckily for humanity, there are genuinely good people out there.

        I’m really glad that your story didn’t go the way of the girl’s. Hers is also an important reminder though that sometimes, people don’t find hope and are ultimately consumed by their pain. People seem to forget that one of the largest driving forces between someone finding hope and not are well, other people. Words hurt a fuck ton–otherwise the people who say them would find other ways to cut someone down.

        I still love James the most of all my characters too. He’s a part of my past and thus a part of my heart.

        Hehe, it’s no problem at all. I enjoy reading your stories and likely will continuing doing so!

    • Late Knight Simmer

      September 11, 2015 at 10:15 am

      Hi ya! Yup. haha, it’s the big city survival thoughts, that keep me minding my own business. That class told you about the ways to prevent someone from doing that too? That’s good. It really is just a small glimmer of hope, that is what people need, to see that it’s not grim, it’s actually fine, there will be better times.

      Most definitely, and I kind of feel like a lot more stories veer toward tragic, I don’t know if that’s just my feeling, or if it’s true, but it’s like, sometimes the person is way to depressed to see hope when it slaps them in the face. I know during some of my bad times, I missed plenty of glimmers of hope because I just couldn’t see them. I think every depressed person has something that can get through to them, for me it was tv/movies, so it is possible for people to pull through shit by themselves. Although, I will say I do agree with you that sometimes other people are that thing that will get through to the depressed person.

      Haha, Woo! You got a spot in that challenge… ;D congrats. They went fast. LOL. Looking forward to see who you submit. ❤

      • LilyShadowWriter

        September 11, 2015 at 11:03 am

        For me it was writing–people were actually one of the major reasons I fell into that hole in the first place -_- Despite this and the fact that I also pulled through on my own, I do believe that not everyone is shitty. In a way, I guess allowing myself to believe that helps keep that glimmer of hope lit, haha.

        And yes!!!! I saw that!! I honestly wasn’t sure if I’d get it since I responded so late at night and I’d already seen it all over my Tumblr dashboard, but then I thought, “Eh what the hell, let me give it a shot!” and hey, what do you know!? ^_^ I’m really excited because this will be the first BC I ever enter. It should be interesting XD

        I’m looking forward to seeing who I submit too seeing as I have no idea yet, LOL. That being said, I’ve got lots of ideas bouncing around in my mind….We’ll just have to see what ultimately comes out in CAS 🙂 Eeee, very fun! lol

    • Late Knight Simmer

      September 11, 2015 at 11:49 am

      Oh yeah, definitely, people were the number one reason I felt that way. LOL. It was like they were using the words as sticks and stones to beat me. Ugh. I agree with you too, now, I don’t think everyone is shitty, since that person on the prerecorded tape who said the first nice things to me in over 6 years, was a person, LOL. I enter into interactions with a positive attitude, mainly because I know how rude people can be, and I don’t want to add to that crap. If I can be that glimmer of hope for someone just cause I was nice to the random barista at Starbucks, you know, then I’m gonna fuckin’ do it.

      LOL. Well, I’m really glad you got a spot, haha, since you’re like someone I’ve kinda bonded a bit with. ❤ When I went to bed, the submissions had pretty much slowed, haha, the first 5 filled pretty damn quick. So I did not expect like… I think I got like 10 more submissions when I woke up and I was kinda like well shit… LOL like in a good and bad way cause I knew some people would be bummed they didn't make it, but the time stamp way of figuring out who actually made it felt like the fairest way. Who knows too if I think it's fun I might do it again, and then the 4 people who didn't make it can get reserved spots or something. Wheeee! The randomness of CAS! LOL. Love it. ❤ It should be even more interesting because I'm doing mine differently than most… I think… it'll probably be similar to ones on Tumblr, more than ones I've read on blogs like WP and Blogger. I hope to make it more exciting and letting people see their Sims a lot more than ones I'd read.

      • LilyShadowWriter

        September 11, 2015 at 12:58 pm

        THAT’S HOW I AM–even if the barista glares at me I’m still nice because I realize the reason he or she is glaring is probablyyyyy because someone else was a total douche and like you said, I really don’t want to add to that. People get enough crap as it is and you never know what a kind word and/or smile might do for someone.

        Aww, oh my gosh, I feel the same way and that’s actually exactly why I joined. Like I said, I’ve never entered a BC before, but when I saw it was you hosting it I was like, “T_T I want to be a part of this because it’s Late Knight Simmer.” ❤

        I definitely think the time stamp method was the fairest way of figuring it out, and now you know for the future that it won't be difficult to get volunteers! The automatic reserved spot sounds like a good idea too.

        I'm really looking forward to this!!! ( ´ ▽ ` )ノ

    • Late Knight Simmer

      September 11, 2015 at 1:06 pm

      LOL IKR? It’s like, their last customer was one of those “I want a soy latte, that’s fat free and sugar free. Okay? You got it? No fat and no sugar. Soy milk only, ok?” LOLL. *rolls eyes*
      Like they’re dumb and haven’t been making coffee every morning since they started their job, like they don’t understand what fat free and sugar free and soy latte mean. I don’t understand people who order like that. It’s like just tell them you want a soy latte, and stfu. LOL.

      OMFG… Lilyshadow… happy tears. LOL. *hugs* That’s just… thank you for telling me that, your words are so sweet. And on such an appropriate post, as well, LOL, it just falls in line with this whole comment stream.

      Yeah, definitely, it’s not hard to get people. O_O LOL. I have the blog for it redone a little, there were some layout things I disliked, heehee, so it might look a little different from when you last saw it, but I like it a lot better. akjdghah, haha, I love all the excitement people are showing. ❤

      • LilyShadowWriter

        September 11, 2015 at 2:26 pm

        I admire their ability to not be like, “That’ll be $3.75. You know…three dollars and three of those big silvery coin things.” LOL.

        And aww!! *hugs back* No problem at all–I really mean it! Gah, I’m filled with warm fuzzies now ^^

        I just checked out the new layout too and my first thought was, “Hellllllo, Giovanni! *waggles eyebrows*” Whoever ends up winning his heart will be one lucky lady! …..I’m of course rooting for mine to be that lady >:) Hehehehe. Look at me, already getting competitive, LOL. This shall be fun XD

    • Late Knight Simmer

      September 11, 2015 at 2:53 pm

      *giggles* When I worked retail, plenty of sarcastic comments used to go through my head when I’d get wierd questions. I worked at a bookstore, and more than one person asked me “Is this the bookstore?” When they would walk in, and be surrounded by books. I always wanted to say “I’m sorry, this is actually Jiffy Lube, so pull your car into Bay 3 and I will get your oil changed for you.” Just to see what they would say, but of course, I never said that.

      Yay! *throws warm fuzzies around*

      LOL, good, I’m glad the header for the new blog was eye catching for you. XD Eee, haha, getting in the competitive spirit already eh? XD

      • LilyShadowWriter

        September 11, 2015 at 2:59 pm

        LOL SAME. I used to work at Disney in retail (hoo boy) and I would literally get questions like, “What time is the 3:00 parade?” and I always wanted to be like, “It’s at 5:00, because Mickey hates you. ….Have a magical day! =D” Bahahahaha XD

    • Late Knight Simmer

      September 11, 2015 at 3:12 pm

      OMFG. Really? What time is the 3:00 parade? Really? *shakes head*
      What did they think 3:00 meant? Miles? How fast the people were going to be walking in the parade? A parade of only 3 year olds? 3 floats? 3 hour parade? Like. OMFG. LOL.

      • LilyShadowWriter

        September 11, 2015 at 3:24 pm

        LOLOL “3 floats” Fuckin’ lame ass parade *wipes tears of laughter*

        Well, I answered “3:00” with a smile and they laughed sheepishly and said, “Oh okay. I thought so, but you never know with these things! It could have just been the name.”

        I just smiled more and said, “Yeah.”

        …..Yeah. …..*subtle eye twitch*


    • Late Knight Simmer

      September 11, 2015 at 3:45 pm

      LMAO. But you never know with these things?! Seriously? Oh. Em. Gee. *wipes tears away* Jesus Christ people… love the eye twitch. XD

  4. jazen

    September 8, 2015 at 1:48 pm

    Words do hurt, they hurt a lot. Those slinging them may not think twice about it, or they do it to inflict pain in that moment. Those slinging them don’t think, or don’t care about how long their hurtful words can stick to a person. 😦

    I like how your wrote this around that sticks and stones saying, because words do hurt. They hurt more than anyone knows if the victim never says anything.

    • Late Knight Simmer

      September 10, 2015 at 1:55 pm

      You know what’s crazy? Sometimes when the victim says something, the people saying mean words don’t care! I wrote this off personal experience, and thoughts I used to have, but I had told them before, “Please, don’t say that, I have a hard enough time calling myself names, I don’t need any help.” They just laughed! They said “Oh, lighten up I was just kidding, can’t you take a joke? It’s not that big a deal.” Yes. Yes it IS a big FUCKING deal. So yeah… some people. *shakes fists* LOL. You’re right too, once a hurtful word has been said multiple times, and it’s been beaten into the victim’s head for years and years, guess what? The victim starts thinking those mean words are true, and then… that’s their downfall, if they can’t find hope once they’re on that downward slope, things look grim. Thanks, I used to believe that quote, but then I started noticing how much people’s words hurt me and I was in it way, way deep before I even realized I was in trouble. Then I started thinking, what.. how did it get this bad? It got that bad because of the first person who ever said a mean thing to me.

      Thanks so much for checking this out and commenting! 🙂

  5. MsMidnightBlonde

    September 10, 2015 at 11:46 am

    I finally made it over here. And I also want to say thank you for posting this. It’s such a difficult subject matter and I know most people stray away from it. I personally love reading about them. The more taboo and controversial, the more I want to see it and read. Idk I guess it’s just that I really hate that we as a society feel the need to hide the brutal truths of life. It only makes things worse for the people who feel like this.
    On that note, I can definitely understand the struggle, pain, and insecurity she faces in this short. And it’s just heartbreaking. It’s so sad that little things can mean so much to us and others can be completely oblivious to that fact. I told you already that I hated it, I loved it so much. And yeah, I hate that this stuff happens and that people feel so alone and worthless that they feel that suicide is the only way out, but I loved it because it also holds beauty in it. Not the death, of course, but it’s just so emotion-filled, I guess is what I’m trying to say. There’s so much here and it just pulls at my heart because I’ve felt the things that she’s felt and I know people all over feel the way she felt in this story. Anyway, I loved it, it made me want to cry, but it was also freeing in a way. Thank you for sharing this. It was so important in so many ways. Love you!! ❤

    • Late Knight Simmer

      September 10, 2015 at 2:05 pm

      Hi! Eee, haha, I’m glad you came over here. I love replying in detail, and this gives me a chance to, so yay! You’re welcome, I really wanted to post it. Hehe. So, I guess I should say, the more controversial and taboo something is, the more I want to write about it, LOL, so I guess you’re also the target reader that I’d be writing for then, since you love reading about stuff like this. Hehe. I too, think it’s stupid that society is all just pretending shit doesn’t exist if they don’t acknowledge it. That’s just retarded. LOL. It’s still there, and it’s still there because no one wants to claim it and fix the fucking problem.
      Yeah, little things do matter, little things matter a lot. All the little pieces of shit build up and become one giant snowball that crushes people under its weight. Good little things matter too, being amused by something that’s not that big a deal is a great thing to do! Society is always like “Ugh, don’t be a child” or whatever, when you get excited about something silly like your coffee is warm or something. Like ok, sure, it’s just warm coffee, but it’s fucking warm coffee. It’s great, and tasty and makes me smile. I think there’s nothing wrong with just smiling to smile. I don’t need to wait for some giant ass monumental thing to happen before I smile. Why the fuck can’t I smile because my friend said hi to me over chat? You know?
      I love the mixed emotion that I made you feel when you read this, and I love that you told me you hated it because you loved it so much. XD It’s exactly what I wanted to make readers feel. Generally I just want readers to feel anything when they read what I write, haha. I feel like we’re all too numb as a society and it makes me nuts.
      Thanks for reading and commenting! Love you too! ❤


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